Blog update July 6, 2018

A lot has happened since my last post. We took a break from many events in our community. Severing ties is never easy and it takes time to get used to a loss in your life, even if the loss was for the better. People will never see eye to eye on issues. When tough times come, you learn a lot about people in stressful situations. That’s when you can really see who people are deep down inside. It also shows who you can keep close and who you need to distance yourself from.


So much of our relationship and my 10+ years in this community have been in service to this community. When you back away, your focus changes. My focus has changed to more time at home and work. Work is work and will always be work. I love my career. Home is our space. We have what makes us happy. We love our neighbors, we love our yard, we love being together here - all three of us.


We do still have our parts of the Austin community that we are committed to. AgoL is my space. I love my girls. Lily Ma'am is busy working with Brame's Educator's Directory, http://bededucators.gloriabrame.com/.  BbD is spot’s place and we support them in their space. I have been making more time for Austin subCulture. It was one of the first groups I attended in this community. Having a place for submissive space is super important. We also have new friends and places to venture to, like FreakShow and Shrine. We do get out and about sometimes. The focus is different, but we are still the same people with the same values. Austin might have changed, but we are still here to support it.

The Huge Night

Tonight was a huge night. You know how you wait for those special moments in your life that mark your journey?

My Mistress and i have had an ongoing conversation about permanent collars for a couple of years now. Every year on our anniversary, we renew our contract after making any changes that need to be made. In the past 5 years some things have come and gone off the contract and some things have stayed the same. Two years ago, we realized we were at the point where we didn't need to make any changes.

In our discussions about permanent collars, Lily Ma'am had said that when the time was right, she would present me with a permanent collar. i added a request to this event. i grew up in a very religious family studying the Bible. Some things have stayed with me in my spiritual journey. One of those was the concept of slavery in the Old Testament. Slaves could be bought and could earn their freedom. If a slave had earned or been given their freedom, they had a choice to accept that freedom or stay committed to their Master. One symbol of this permanent commitment was the slave asking their Master to pierce their ear as a symbol of their commitment and devotion. i asked Lily Ma'am to pierce my ear when she chose to give me a permanent collar.

Tonight, She surprised me. We had a planned Shadowhouse family dinner at M.M. & L.E.’s house. i was in a meeting with two others in their home office when there was a knock at the office door. 

Someone (i found out later it was spot) had left my vest and boots with directions to take off my clothes (except for my panties) and put on the boots & vest.  Then i was instructed to come quietly into the living room, find my Mistress and put on her boots (it’s a ritual we do before any Leather function).  i had a suspicion that it was the collaring ceremony and i was excited that She had chosen to include our Leather family. What i did not expect was a room full of family and friends to bear witness to this.

After i put Her boots on Her she had me read our contract aloud for everyone to bear witness, and then she tied my arms to a chair with my favorite rope.  Wolfways (who holds a special place in my heart) held me tightly while she pierced the upper part of my right ear with one of Her needles and placed Her earring in it.

i've known for years that i will always be Hers, and i feel so blessed and honored that i have family who provided this special night for us. i have amazing people in my life who have been there throughout my journey. i am so happy they were able to see the beginning of this next path.

So here is my ongoing and evolving section about me. i'm a 5th generation Austinite. i love this city!

i started this journey like most by doing online. That was just the first step. While i was online, i read, i joined groups, i chatted with people - real people with real relationship dynamics. 

Eventually, online was not enough. i wanted real for myself. i dated, i went to munches, and i had play partners.  Most people have heard Lily Ma'am tell of how we first met, which is another story for later. 

The important thing is that we had an instant connection. In the beginning i thought i was heterosexual and monogamous. Little did i know that would change. my Mistress began courting me, i began learning about Leather, experiencing poly, and serving in my community. i guess you could now say i am a reformed monogamous heterosexual.

i serve on the GWNN Bash Committee, Secretary for Austin girls of Leather, and i am pledging for Austin Leather Corps.

Why did i start this blog?  i have been wanting to for a while. i think there are more working slaves who are live-in, 24/7 than i realize. i want to connect and share what i have learned along the way.